I'm very sorry to hear about your friend and your accident. I can sorta relate how you feel about your accident seeing as I hit a patch of black ice the other night in the stang and end up in a pretty deep ditch, although unlike you my car had very minimal damage (just a scrape or two underneath on nothing major), i had no one to deal with except for a very understanding cop and a few nice men in tow trucks who ran up and down the road all night. That road was apparently pretty bad after the short amount of snow we got, with around 12 reported accidents. This guy was definately not acting in an appropriate mannor. Had it been me instead of you to get in the accident, I think i may have refused to give him my license untill he calmed down. How you responded was perfectly fine and should not have called for that kind of verbal abuse.

 

Sorry to hear about your accident. I wish mine was more like yours, but unfortunately sometimes you have to bite the bullit I guess. Hope you weren't banged up too bad, my bumper is sagging a bit, but nothing devastating, and I am perfectly fine. Thank God for seatbelts, and thank him again that I didn't need the airbags.

Again, I was way too shaken to even try to deal with the guy more than just trying to get him whatever he asked for, so he would leave and we could part ways. Thinking back, I really wish there had been cops there to buffer the situation. All things I'll try to think of next time, which I hope will be a long while away.

 

Funeral was today, the viewing was last night for my buddy. It was nice to finally put him to rest.

A couple lines (not exactly in sequence to how it was written) from a poem he wrote in an English class a while back.

"Death is cold as ice...
Let me be cold so I may feel the true warmth of those around me"
Michael Roberts


I hope you can feel it up there, buddy. We all miss you down here, and you were loved very much. I'll be looking up to figure out which star up there is for you tonight, I hope you're looking down on us too.

 

Mods might want to move this to "Off topic" if I get too mopy adding stuff in here.

 

i am very sorry for your loss, as everybody said, hang in there, youve got friends, we all know you online, but your a mustang man, we all share tha connection, PM me if you need to chat im open ears because i know somtimes its better just to tell how you feel to sombody..on a side note, i was recently involved in a minor accident, i wasnt 100% at fault do to me not having control over the vehicle, but the young man that hit me failed to stop in assured cleared distance, and i knew he felt horrible about it, theres no way i could be mean to him, before he even got out of his truck i was at his door making sure he was ok, some people out there are cold and bitter inside, dont take it personaly from them, if they dont have anything good to say to you dont listen to it, you sound like you got a good head on your shoulders and your doing you best to get by, we need more guys like you in this world. so just dont sweat over the truck for right now, there are more important things, celebrating your friends life...try to have a good day, best wishes

 

So the last thing the priest said before we parted ways, was that if we look up tonight into the night sky, then through all the city lights there would be a star outshining all the rest. That star would be Michael peeking down from heaven.

Well I went outside tonight, and it was overcast.

So I drove around until I saw a parting in the clouds, got outta the truck and looked into the holes. And it was just darkness. Scattered pin ****** of light. Not enough to be him.

So I kept driving, and as Arin knows, my girlfriend of seven months broke up with me on Friday (unrelated, but probably has to do with how I was acting recently) Yesterday her and I got in a big fight, and after having the whole "we can be friends" discussion, I messed things up. Like usual.

I needed her tonight though, so I drove to her percussion teacher's house. I knew she'd be there, because I had gone with her to her class every tuesday night since before we were going out. Last week was the first time I didn't.

So I got outta the truck, parked around the corner from her dad's car (a surefire sign that she wasn't alone) but also in plain view from the door. Took a blanket off of the back seat and put it on the roof. The bed was all wet, and I wanted to be visible. I layed on the roof for about a half hour before some stars came into view.

There it was. A star that outshined them all peeking out at me.

I knew it was him, and that he was looking down at me. So I stared at it, and prayed, and talked to him.

Then Andrea came out of the house, followed closely by her dad. I didn't want to make him wait, and I didn't know if she wanted to talk to me, or hear what I said anyway. As she got into her car, the clouds closed. And as she drove away, the rain started to pour.

Life sometimes is so tough. This really makes me cling to everybody around, and my clinging led to Andrea leaving. I don't know what to do about her, cause I love her, and she loves me too. It's not "love" like typical teenagers talk about "love" in the same sentence as they are talking about how they are having sex or something. It's the kind of love that you don't need that to feel fulfilled. She was so stressed last week, and everything I dumped on her, and the time I needed was enough to make anyone snap.

Arin has been behind me all through this hard time, and the support you all have shown me has brought me to tears, and helped to dry some others.

I appreciate all the compassion, and truly thank all of you.

 

Hey bro... from reading this thread I can tell that this is one of the most, if not THE most trematic sequence of events in your life. This has actually been quite theraputic for ME to read this.....sometimes, I can loose prospective on life and forget that truley terrible things happen that you cant control...(happened to me before, but its been a while) The Lord sometimes will throw you curveball after knuckleball trying to get you to understand how He is working in your life. I know it doesnt make any sense now...but one day it will. IT is not for use to know the timing of God's actions, but to just believe that He is in control, and that it is for your benifit. Continue to pray about this and He will give you the strength and courage to listen to the steps He wants you to take. I reccomend spending some time with Him and listen to what He has to speak to you. I cant gaurantee He'll say anything, but it would at least be a signal to Him that you are on board with whatever He is cooking up there. Hang in there.

 

To be honest, I'm extremely glad that someone has the cajones to say something about God, and He is a big part of my healing process. I understand that He has a bigger plan, but sometimes I wish that He could spread it out a little. I'm trying to keep a smile and work through every day. Today was hard though, since my creative writing teacher asked me to write about the funeral. Almost cried, but held back. Then after school I got to talk to my priest about everything that has been going on throughout these past few days. It was good to finally have a good face to face with someone.


Thanks guys. I really appreciate all of this.

 

I didnt know thats how you spell "cojones"...lol.....no prob man...I've been a youth minister for almost 2 years now....and been in Christian Radio for a little longer....If you ever need anything...I'll see what I can do.

 

Send a prayer up for Michael, and his family. They need it more than anything I could ask for.